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Monday, July 30, 2012

Memoir #56 Peace of mind and heart

According to the National Stillbirth Society, a stillbirth is a fetal death that occurs at 20 weeks or beyond.  1 in 160 pregnancies will end in stillbirth.  How long can the myth go on that once you hit the 12 week mark you’re in the clear?  The unfortunate truth is, no pregnancy is completely secure and I would attribute this to the miracle that creating new life truly is.

1/3 of all stillbirths are unexplained.  The babies seem perfectly healthy, the placenta, the mother etc.
 2/3rds, however, do come with some answers as to what happened although there is still very little comfort when the cause comes after the fact.  For example, many stillbirths occur because of “cord accidents” where either the umbilical cord wrapped around the baby’s neck and cut off the baby’s nutrient supply or the cord develops a blood clot and the same thing happens. 

The research in this area of obstetrics medicine is slim to none.   More babies die from stillbirth than S.I.D.S. yet the research that is done in that area far outweighs any research being done for stillbirth.  This needs to change but what we do know already is important and maybe a little advocacy will go a long way to help prevent stillbirth. The good news is, there are ways to watch for causes like cord accidents and possibly prevent a stillbirth. 
Please spread the word.  I have been involved with two large and renowned obstetrics offices and neither of them give any of this information to pregnant women and their families.  The only pamphlets that they carry regarding stillbirth are grieving information once it’s already too late to act.  This is typical practice and it needs to change so that every woman has a chance to do something if she is presented with an early demise of her baby.

A daily “kick count” starting at 26-28 weeks of pregnancy or before if the woman can feel this pattern is important.  The woman should take time each day to record her baby’s movements.  Once she can familiarize herself with what is normal for her baby, then she is more likely to notice when something does not feel right.  Many women, who have experienced stillbirth, report that right beforehand they noticed either heightened movement (could be sign of a struggle) or lessened or no movement. 
Another symptom to keep one’s eyes open for are hiccups.  Many women report that their baby had very noticeable hiccups before its demise.

Another common cause is infection that ends up in the placenta.  The woman does not know she has this until her placenta is examined after the stillbirth.  It’s hard to tell if this is happening but any potential infection such as a urinary tract infection or vaginal infection  or any other type of suspected infection in the body should be checked out immediately by the OB.  If an infection continues too long without being treated it can move into what is typically a very secure environment where the baby is.  Normally this shouldn’t happen and I actually had a nurse practitioner tell me recently that the above won’t happen.  Well guess what, it happens.  How do I know this?  That is most likely what happened to my pregnancy.  The placenta did have an infection…well how?  I have no idea because I was being heavily monitored by OB’s but no one checked me for any.  I should have been more in tune with my body and requested this but unfortunately I didn’t know. 
If you have a microscopic hole in your amniotic sack it is actually very easy for any bacteria to get to the placenta.  Most of the time there is no way of knowing that there is a hole and in my case the doctors checked me for leaking amniotic fluid (even a trace) and could not find any.  Well, a few days later the ultrasound showed it was certainly decreasing.  The doctor said that if people have microscopic holes they either heal themselves or they get worse.  Well we see what happened in my case.

Mistakes happen and the awareness is so low in this area that often a combination of things will cause a stillbirth so I just want to put them out there for people to be aware.
The good news is, God promises us that if we put our trust in him, he will give us peace of mind.  He said, “I am leaving you a gift – peace of mind and heart.  And the peace I give is a peace that the world cannot give.  So don’t be troubled and afraid.”  John 14:27